Monday, June 1, 2015

He's already here


"How did she end up in the B wing" the voice of a woman asked.
"I don't know ma'am, I found her at the nurses station, she was in shock ." A man's voice replied, Bianca identified the man's voice as bishop's, the guard 5hat had discovered her.
"Were you able to get her name?" The woman asked.
"No ma'am, but I think I found the room she was in, there were no personal effects inside, but there was a bag of urine and a catheter there was some blood on it."
" My name is Bianca Holt" Bianca stated clearly into the fog.
"I think she's coming too" the woman said then Bianca felt hands on her arm. I must have passed out, she thought, I have to wake up "my name is Bianca Holt." She stated again. "Miss, if you can hear me nod your head" the woman encouraged. Bianca began nodding her head and with every nod the white cloud lifted a bit revealing blackness beneath.
"Very good" coaxed the woman "open yours eyes, your safe, your in the hospital, Bishop Page the doctor and tell him jane doe from the b wing is coming too." Bianca heard bishop's footsteps as he left room. Open your eyes Bianca, she told herself open them! Her eyelids were so heavy it felt as if they were weighted down but slowly the blackness began to take shape and she could see the face of the woman who was speaking to her and hospital room around her. "My name is Bianca Holt" she said her voice weak and hoarse. The woman wrote her name on a small spiral pad she held in her hand.  The woman wasn't dressed as a nurse or doctor but in a ill fitted pantsuit.  She was an attractive woman despite the lack of any make up and her hair, seemed dirty and swept up into a sloppy ponytail. She appeared to be in her forties but Bianca thought she may have appeared younger if she were wearing make up. "Ok Bianca,"  the woman said, "now we are getting somewhere. Can you tell me how you got here, to the hospital?"
"Alice Leck" was all that Bianca could squeak out and it was the only thing on her mind, "find dr. Alice Leck, I think she has my baby" Bianca was able to state more clearly.
"Is that why you came here to the hospital Bianca, to have a baby?"
" Yes, I went into labor. I was supposed to have a c section and hysterectomy. I had a contraction in the parking lot and two men retrieved me and brought me inside."
" they brought you into the b wing?"
"Honestly it's a blurr."
"Bianca, what is the last thing you recall before the surgery?"
It suddenly occurred to Bianca that she had no idea who this woman was and that it certainly wasn't prudent to divulge any information to anyone that couldn't be trusted given the mysterious circumstances surrounding her situation.
The woman stared intensly at Bianca for a moment before she turned her head to acknoowlege the doctor and another woman Entering The room. "  "thank you officer, can you come with me for a moment so Dr. McAllister can assess the patient" the woman who came with the dr. Asked an officer, Bianca thought, that makes since she felt relief wash over her knowing it was some sort of officer that she had been talking to and not someone with questionable motives. "certainly " the officer replied, "I'll speak with you again soon Bianca" the officer said as she laid a card on the table next to the hospital bed. Bianca nodded.
"My name is Bianca Holt. My husband is Tyler Holt and someone needs to contact him." Bianca stated to the doctor. "We will get to working on that right away, but first let's have a look at you." The doctor replied matter of factly. "My baby is missing, you need to find Dr. Alice Leck and find out where my baby is." Bianca snapped impatiently.  It was time to get things done.  The doctor, a man Bianca guessed was in his mission fifties with pure white hair and wore thick tortoise she'll glasses almost identical to her father's smiled at Bianca and touched her shoulder. "I'm Dr. McAllister, I'm going to need to examine you and then we will address every concern you have, one at a time until we have sorted this all out.  While you were unconscious you were given several units of blood.  You incision was cleaned and re dressed, you aren't exhibiting any indications of infection and the work on your c section appears to be sound and professional. An ultrasound shows that your uterus is where is should be, in relation to its size and position for someone 2 days postpartum .
"Two days!" Bianca exclaimed, shocked that she had no idea how long she had been in the hospital. "My God, and no one has heard from my husband and no one has located my child I still have a uterus?!" Dr McAllister looked puzzled, no doubt because Bianca seemed upset to have a uterus. But smiled calmly and spoke softly, "I know you are concerned and you have every right to be. But I need you to keep calm, your blood pressure is a concern right now and I don't want to have to give you something to calm you as I'm sure you would prefer being as sharp as possible while we sort this all out." The suited woman reentered the room without the officer and approached her bedside.  The doctor looked at her and quickly instructed her to locate Dr. Leck and Tyler Holt .
"We have reached out to Dr. Leck, we are waiting to hear back and Mr. Holt is here and eager to see his wife." Bianca felt her hands grow cold and her cheeks grow warm, Tyler is here, thank God, she wanted him to hold her so badly. She felt the prick of tears welling up in her eyes. The suited woman cut her gaze to Bianca, "hello Bianca, my name is Sandra, I'm the hospital administrator." Without missing a beat Sandra returned her attention back to the Dr. "Shall I tell Mr. Holt he can see her as soon as he's finished with officer charles?"
"Yes, have him shown in immediately." Dr . McAllister instructed commandingly "when he is here no one is to disturb their visit, they have much to discuss." The dr patted Bianca's shoulder and Bianca beamed at him with appreciation.

Is my Baby with you?

"Bianca, the authorities are trying to reach you. Shane and June have been in an accident.  Bea, Shane....your father, he didn't...honey I'm so sorry, he didn't make it.  June is on life support but they tell me they are holding out little hope for her..." It was a shaken April Bettles, June's mother who had left Bianca the message Bianca say paralyzed in shock as she listened to the horrific news "the baby, he is critical, but he's alive Bianca, and he may make it. You need to get to Oxford as soon as possible. I'm leaving Florida now.  I'm sorry to have left you this message but I don't know what else to do. Please call me just as soon as you can."  Bianca felt faint, and realized she wasn't breathing. She sharply inhaled as she listened to the voice mail menu rattle off her options. When it prompted her to press 2 to save the message she did and the next message began playing "Bianca! What the hell is going on, why are you not answering the phone. I'm here in Oxford, I got your message baby, please call me.  April Bettles got ahold of me I am on my way to the hospital that your family is at, I can't believe your having the baby, I'm so sorry that I'm not there, I need to know what you want me to do, do you want me to come back or stay here.  Darlin' I don't even have the words...i don't know what to do, I called the hospital where you said you were going, they say your not there. God please don't let something have happened to you. Bianca...." the message cut off after that, Bianca presumed it was because it was too long. Again she pressed 2 upon the voicemails instructions. "You have no new messages in your mailbox". 
Her trembling hand replaced the reciever. Daddy's dead she whispered. Junes dying. I had a baby. Where is my baby. Tylers looking for me, he doesn't know anything. She continued talking to herself as her brain tried to digest everything that had just been revealed to her When she was startled by a man's voice. "What are you doing here!" The man shouted, he was wearing a uniform, he looked like he could be a police officer, maybe just a security gaurd. He had one hand hovering over a night stick and the other held up as if telling her to stop. He was a very tall black man and looked to be in his early forties.  The metal name badge on his shirt read "Bishop" beneath the name it said security.  Bianca couldn't move or speak she felt as if she were watching herself from outside of her own body. Reading the name "Bishop" over and over again she could feel her lips mouthing the name, she was unable to stop, she wanted too, but her body felt like a robot that had short circuited. "Maam!" Bishop snapped at her again "what are you doing here?!" He insisted.  Bianca's ears were ringing, she could see his mouth moving but she could hear nothing beyond the deafening buzzing ring in her head. Bishop approached her cautiously, she followed him with her eyes, her lips still mouthing the name but everything else still frozen solid. He approached the counter speaking into a walkie talky attached to his shoulder. One hand still hovering over the nightstick. She still heard nothing but could tell he was telling her to come out from behind the counter, she couldn't move, she couldn't even shake her head. He continued towards  her slowly, still motioning for her to come forward. When he reached the counter his brown eyes widened in disbelief.  Seeing now that she was wearing a hospital gown and was unarmed his demeanor softened and Bianca could tell he was speaking softly he paused from time to time to talk into the speaker on his shoulder but no longer held his hand over his nightstick. The ringing in her ears began to subside slightly, she heard him ask her if she was okay and for the first time since his appearance she was able to move. She shook her head no slowly,  and slower still raised her hands to her abdomen.  She may have been able to speak if she had tried but there just weren't any words sufficient enough to summarize how not okay she was. Bishop spoke into his shoulder "She's bleeding from her abdomen, we need a doctor  here immediately." Puzzled Bianca looked down at her throbbing abdomen.  Her gown was soaked in blood.  She felt like she was going to pass out "no," she plead with herself quietly in her mind, "do not lose conciousness, Bianca, you have to stay alert, God knows what will be done with you if you pass out." Bianca could feel her eyes fluttering and her brain slipping into a dream like state of confusion "no" she wimpered at Bishop "please, don't let me pass out, please" Bishop ran around the counter and kneeled beside her she offered him her hands and he gently held them. "Help is on the way miss, your going to be okay" he told her gently while he squeezed he hands. She nodded indicating she was trying to hold on before the ringing returned to her ears and everything in the room except for Bishop became a foggy blurr. She could feel him squeezing her hands and could see his lips moving and his head nodding assuringly as he was washed in the white fog that had overtaken the rest of the room. 
The familiar voice of a woman began singing that song, the one she and Tyler liked so much, their song.
"Your silent retreat was screaming loudly our love had died and tho we were just a moment you took my heart along for your selfish ride. How do I say goodbye to my heart, how do I give up on you, you have to feel it too, just get to know me, let me just know you."
"Why are you singing that?!" Bianca asked with suprising vigor. Still seeing nothing but foggy white, "who is singing that Bishop? I can't see you. I can't see anything" Biancas voice was so strong and clear she didn't know how she had the strength to project it so well.  Suddenly her nose was filled with a familiar smell, it was the warm and comforting smell of her mother, just like on the robe in her mother's bedroom when she and Shane had returned after the funeral. " Mom!" Bianca  exclaimed "yes"  her mother sweetly replied.  "Am I dead?" Bianca asked unsure of what she really wanted the answer to be. "No baby, your not dead, you have lost alot of blood, but your going to be alright. Your father is with me now, and we don't want you to worry, everything is going to be alright. We have to go, and you have to wake up now. "
"Please mom, no, don't go yet...mom is my baby with you? Is he dead?"
"No, Bianca, he's not here, wake up baby you must pay attention now."
"Mom, no! I love you!" Bianca plead.